The #1 Mistake When Your Egg Cracks (What NOT to Do After Realizing You're Trans)

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  @jentzi23 · 2 years ago

  There are so many comments from people who are older.. and it makes me so happy. I'm not alone to know later in life.

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• CA

  @carlsmith2826 · 1 year ago

  Egg crack later in life is nothing short of traumatizing in itself.

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• TH

  @ThatJay283 · 2 years ago (edited)

  at the time my egg first cracked, i was in a very deep pit of depression. i was hiking with my parents at the time, and while walking i realized that "yup i am 100% not cis". the first people i told were my friends, and their response was just "yes" lol. they already knew :)

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  @ph5541 · 2 years ago

  I began transitioning about 11 months ago at age 45. From the beginning of this journey,  it is uncanny just how on-the-nose your videos have been to my experiences. This video is no different. My egg started to crack during covid when my job's office shut down and we began working exclusively from home. When I did come to terms that I have to transtrion,  I felt a desperate need to start HRT and femminizing, beard removal, etc. as fast as possible for the exact reasons you menitoned, namely wanting to enjoy my life as a woman while I'm still young enough to enjoy it. Moving fast almost certainly put extra strain on my marriage that already had some cracks. I'm not sure if it might have been any better to go slower in the long run, but the ongoing struggle of trying to hold my homelife together has certainly been the biggest external contributor of stess in this whole process.

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• DA

  @darkloulou696 · 5 months ago (edited)

  When my egg cracked i put a rule on myself that i would only start hrt when i hit 250 pounds from 320. it was my way of not rushing and let myself process and make sure it was not just a sexual fantasy that fades in and out but something more integral to myself. It also takes months to achieve.

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  @Chieo_1871 · 3 months ago

  I feel like I had already long started transitioning socially when my egg cracked. I have always believed that one should do what they are most comfortable with so I wore the clothes i was comfortable with, talked the way I was comfortable with and sometimes I tried getting out of my comfort zone only to realize I did not want to be there. Around 7 months ago I first started questioning my gender identity and I went with just calling myself genderfluid and not telling anyone about it even though I was obviously uncomfortable with the gender I was assigned at birth, but the "I can't change anything" thoughts won over hard. Around a month ago though I was hit in the head by a comic along with online discourse. It's a lot to take in but I think having questioned my gender beforehand has significantly affected how easily I could accept this for myself. It was never about being trans itself, it was about feeling like being trans was something I was capable of expressing openly. I won't announce it to just anyone for now, but the knowledge alone that I am not shying away from the idea is helping me a lot in feeling more like myself

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  @DavidRamm-x1m · 2 years ago

  Dr Z, thank you for your channel. I am a 62 year old who came to the realization that I am transgender about 8 months ago. One of the things that kind of helped me realize or start researching was a conversation in a campground with an Army sergeant enjoying some R&amp;R between duty stations. The short of it is that he was telling me about he and his buddies getting Rufee’d in Germany, basically a convo about the hazards of overseas duty. A few days later it dawned on me that I had been “Zeroxed” several times while in “A” school in the Navy, and I started drawing lines connecting dots; unwanted advances from men, being “Zeroxed” several times, my attraction to certain men, cross-dressing, etc. It didn’t seem to make sense, I never thought I had female feelings when I was younger. Then I found your channel and watched several of your videos about “discovering” that you are trans at a later age, and started being able to put things together, just two days ago my wife and I had a very open conversation about me seeking counseling to begin transitioning. I am so much calmer suddenly and my unexplained anger has subsided. <br>Thank you for your channel and the good you are doing!<br>Destiny

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  @kellyloganme · 2 years ago

  Vibes. This was totally me. I socially transitioned and started hrt immediately after realizing in my fifties. &nbsp; I only felt comfortable in public in full makeup and breast forms like in my pic 👈.<br>About a year in, when I tried to change my name and was starting the path to bottom surgery, I hit a wall. The first challenges just stopped me dead. Lots of anxiety. Fortunately I was part of a super supportive community of diversely gendered and presenting people that reduced the pressure to perform and present in a super femme way. I also have been working with a therapist throughout and was able to confront these issues with them and they gave me the same advice - slow down, I don&apos;t have to do everything at once. That helped so much. <br>Side note - I stopped wearing breast forms when my own breasts came in. Even though they stopped growing at a b cup, it was so much easier and gave me so many more options, particularly in summer. That helped me slow down a bit too so I didn&apos;t hit that wall so hard.

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  @DorothyBell-u6g · 2 months ago

  For decades I’ve been aware of feelings of femininity and my identification with women. Crossdressing was my outlet, which I didn’t hide from my female partners but otherwise kept it strictly secret. I’ve always had a private female name. I thought of myself as a feminine male, though my male behaviour was not effeminate. That was part of my denial or masking of my true self, I now see. The term ‘trans’ has been familiar to me for some years but (weirdly) I didn’t perceive it as applying to me. My egg cracked finally last week. I now realise that I am a trans woman and a new stage of my journey begins. Better late than never. I’ve watched several of your videos now. Each one has spoken directly to me. Thank you for your wisdom.

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  @Tobini42 · 2 years ago

  This is a wonderful video! My egg cracked 3 months ago and it was just like you described. Like my subconscious had been carefully collecting all the data for the last 5 decades and hid it away until I was ready. I knew something was up with my gender for a long time , but what finally cracked the egg was getting the courage to finally talk to a therapist. As soon as I got off the phone after scheduling my first appointment, it all hit me at once. Eggshell pieces everywhere!! Sometimes it feels too fast, and other times much too slow, but I think I’m proceeding at a good pace. I waited almost 2 months before coming out to my sister, and now only a few close family members know and they know I’m still slowly figuring it all out. My sister has been amazing, she told me nobody is expecting anything from me except my happiness 🥰

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  @josephbelisle5792 · 2 years ago

  I am definitely not one of those who rushed off when my &quot;egg cracked&quot;. There is going to be a long process on figuring out what I will do. Sadly, my early childhood was filled with trauma, abuse and neglect. Ive been seeing a trauma therapist for several years. Without this I would not have such clairity on my trans issue. But I still have many questions and need to work some things out. I will do what is best for me. I just need to figure out what that is. <br>Its hard with two significantly powerful identities both believing they are right. The female is 100% sure I am female and mourns a lifetime of loss living as I have. And I have to agree. And the identity i was not only forced into but due to major trauma caused me to have to rebuild my identity at an early age but in line with society. My story is a little more complicated than most. But I suspect that there are a lot like me as children demanding to be the sex they know they are and were not born as, get traumatized by caregivers, friends, family, relatives, strangers, society, the world in general.

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  @mariemaxham4530 · 1 month ago

  Happened to me right after my 52nd birthday. Weirdly, I immediately stopped a lifetime of biting my nails without thinking about it.

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