Am I REALLY a Christian?
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@ChrisGarrett-Kern · 1 month ago
My grandfather graduated from Yale Divinity in the 1920s. His class was informed on the first day that they would be exposed to information that might challenge their faith, depending on what beliefs were supporting their faith. Consequently, the prediction was openly made that many in that class would drop out well before graduation, regardless of their grades. Like others, Grandpa thought "that will never happen to me" but, as the terms went on, more and more of his classmates did indeed drop out. This so concerned him that he went to a professor he trusted and spoke about his concern over the value of the education that was being dispensed, especially if it caused so many to question their core beliefs and overall faith. The professor said a number of things in response to his concerns, but the one thing that stuck with Grandpa the most -- that he carried long enough to relate it to me -- was "You will always find God in the truth." I think about that so often that it's fair to say I carry it with me every single day, and I (personally) have never found it to be incorrect.
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@alexandraamihan · 1 month ago (edited)
I grew up in the UCC, a group that fully embrace the social gospel (after-life, hell, doomsday was not a priority). I got married to an Episcopalian priest - I enjoy going to church every Sunday; now and then I sit with Christian contemplatives and sometimes Buddhists to help my ADHD brain. As a Religious Studies major in undergrad, and one with an MDiv, I'm now consider myself a mystic, which means I'll be seen as an atheist heretic to Christian apologists or fundamentalists, but to neo-atheists, I'll probably be labeled woo-woo religious Christian who likes bells and smells, hymns, ancient chants & candles.
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@Blustargalaxy · 1 month ago
I find your non-dogmatic approach so utterly fascinating. Growing up, we weren't allowed to choose what we wanted to believe. Either I was following god by accepting everything or in rebellion because I had issues with stuff.
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@GaryKjorvestad · 1 month ago
Very open video! A few things stand out for me. You speak of "letting people know that they are not alone with their spiritual struggle". This sounds a lot like Jesus to me. He is the epitome of saving the troubled soul with Divine Love. Secondly, you have a basic decency and kindness. This is one reason I continue to watch your channel. I've been around many "hardcore believers" and the percentage of them in regards to kindness and understanding of differences can be quite disturbing at times. Finally, as a more Trad Christian than you, I see you as a younger brother (I'm in my seventies) on a genuine search for God and Truth that is ongoing. You are an admirable man. God be with you always!
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@icuranme2018 · 1 month ago
I'm an agnostic atheist, but I'm comfortable visiting certain kinds of churches like episcopal. It's far from the apologetic / evangelical tradition I grew up in, but there's a little nostalgia.
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@nevillee6190 · 1 month ago
Thanks Chris. As always insightful and helpful. I started calling myself a heretic whilst still going to church as I couldn't hold to a lot of the stuff people around me believed, in my view slavishly without ever examining the evidence. I have softened to a non-conformist and I am now comfortable practicing Christianity the way I am currently convinced I should (though of course this will change as time goes by and I learn more) not the way my church tells me I should. Your work has helped me and I am very comfortable with you pushing back on those arrogant apologists who state conjecture as 100% fact. Please keep up the good work.
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@Steve-u9k4p · 1 month ago
I'm a non fundamentalist Anglican and I very much appreciate you and your posts. Tyvm🙏
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@DrEddleman · 1 month ago
Dr Cornthwaite, Thank you for your ongoing engagement in the public sphere about Christianity. So many people are driven away from Christianity because they think right-wing evangelicals speak for all Christians. They don't! I am grateful for the work that you are doing.
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@RachelSeidel · 1 month ago
I just discovered you in the past week and this video gave me so much comfort. I'm about two years now into deconstruction or as I prefer to call it "untangling" from evangelicalism. The waves of anger you described I definitely relate to and some days when I just know I'm not a Christian anymore. And then there are other days I'm outside or I'm peacefully sewing on my couch or I hear a particular song or smell a particular candle that feels deeply spiritual to me and I just immediately feel connected to Jesus. I'm also now agnostic to plenty of the tenets of Christianity I used to hold with white knuckles, but now I find freedom in the uncertainty. I feel a deeper faith but in a more complex and nuanced way than I ever did completely immersed in evangelical ministry. I'm not quite ready to step back into a church quite yet but I found your story so compelling and relatable, thank you for giving me some hope, and I love that this road is lifelong. I wonder if that is what Jesus meant by a child-like faith?
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@michaelfuller34 · 1 month ago (edited)
Ok, but are you a true scottsman?😂 but seriously I really appreciate this sentiment that you share as it has helped me so much with finding where I fit at my church. ❤
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@Zictomorph · 1 month ago
I'm faithless and a regular church goer. Places that welcome people like me exist, but it was a years long journey to find a new church home.
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